Momma's Day

I can remember being in seventh grade and sitting in my youth group one Sunday morning.  

Our youth minister asked us to write on a slip of paper what we wanted to be when we grew up.  "

My friends wrote words like "nurse, teacher, physical therapist..."

I wrote one simple word.

I wrote "MOM."

I meant it from the depths of my soul.  There's nothing that I've ever wanted to be more.  And I thank God every day that He saw fit to lend me three of the most precious kids ever.

 (Jaxon Thorpe Mason- 2/24/2008)

The day that I actually became a mom was a little scary.  Jaxon's birth wasn't an easy one.  A respiratory team was waiting on his arrival and he was whisked away from me very quickly.  I remember being terrified.  And exhausted.  And I've pretty much been terrified and exhausted every day since.  But it's been so worth it.  After 25 hours of labor, and three hours of actual pushing, I didn't have much left to give.  But I wanted to hold my baby.  I can remember walking to the nursery that night.  I didn't have much strength, but I needed to hold him.  And it was a moment I'll never forget.  Jaxon was the best baby.  I never knew I could love anyone so much.  I couldn't believe he was actually mine.  He's still an amazing kid, and many days I still can't believe that he's actually mine.

 

 

 (Knox Holmes Mason- 1/26/2011)

Almost three years later, I became a Momma again.  Another little boy stole my heart.  And sweet Knox hasn't stopped stealing my heart.  Every day I find new reasons to love him. Knox's birth was a lot easier than Jaxon's, but not much about being Knox's mom has been easy.  He's the most passionate, emotional child on earth.  It can often be frustrating, but every day I'm claiming that God will use Knox in big ways for His glory and for His kingdom.  My love for Knox is the same as my love for Jaxon but it's also totally different (That's something that I didn't understand before I was a Momma). They are two totally different kids, and they hold two enormous pieces of my heart. 

 (Paxton Grace Mason- 1/23/2014)

And then almost three years later, a little girl rocked our entire world.  I can remember being sooooo overcome with emotion when they placed her in my arms for the very first time (and I'm fairly certain that I haven't stopped crying since).  I never knew I wanted a little girl, but I'm thankful that God knew that I needed her.  She is my joy.  I'm not sure how I would survive one day without those big blue eyes, her sweet hugs and her telling me "you best my friend."  She really is my best friend and I'm so thankful that God gave me Paxton Grace.

Life wouldn't mean much without these three.

Being a Mom is the hardest thing I've ever done, but it is without a doubt also the most rewarding.

I hope someday they will be able to look back and see how hard I tried.

On days that I'm tired, and frustrated, and overwhelmed, I hope that they are still able to see that I love them with every ounce of my being.

Truly every ounce.  With everything that I have.

All I ever hope to do is just be their Momma.

And lead them closer to the heart of God as I do it.

He is the One that lent them to me, after all.

You kiddos have made all of my dreams come true,

and I'll forever be thankful to God for the blessing of being your Momma.

(Momma, Knox, Paxton, & Jaxon- Rosebower Mother's Day Breakfast 2016)